When i say something is True, I’m saying it’s a valid possibility from my point of view.
The unfortunate word “Truth”, we’ve done you wrong for so long.
So i have all these possibilities about a situation making up my perspective, which oddly enough, seems to have come with a dash of compassion and understanding this past year; even though 2016 and early 2017 were the worst years yet, an unexpected by-product to say the least!
I did not set out to change anything external, but that sure has changed too. The noticeable change is with view, intention and resulting thoughts. To see situations and understand them from perspectives built on possibilities, you have an opportunity for detachment or “transcendence” from them all, they cancel each other out and gift clarity, an emotional balance in chaos. This is not to say that to “don’t care” or have “given up”, those concepts are immaterial. It’s much deeper, in that suffering does not give rise in the first place; the reason you would have suffered prior no longer exists.
Don’t sweat it though, when it’s time for suffering, we’ll suffer…
There’s this drug I know about.
Gives the illusion of pleasure,
it’s poison and completely legal.
Everyone’s doing it.
Chances are your parents and grandparents are hooked too!
It destroys the mind, body and environment.
It will eventually destroy humanity.
It doesn’t take years from your life,
but does take life from your years.
It’s called EXCESS and you’re living in it.
Take a hit and pass it around bro.
Said something, anything,
it could’ve meant nothing,
everything, to everyone, everywhere,
or they simply don’t care to compare,
then there’s the possibility of warfare,
hoping instead, they’ll share in this affair.
It is so strange reading this piece from almost 5 years ago! LOL
I’m at a strange point in my life. From psychological perspective, I feel like there have been more changes in the past couple years that have been experienced in my entire time on earth. When looking at the past, I see myself as an angry person. Not so much at the people or situations in my life, but at myself; internally. Never happy with the way things go, always looking for something more, never appreciating my accomplishments or the people in my life or the way things are. A tug of war between positive and negative emotions. These days, the positive emotions are winning the tug of war.
That analogy is pretty lame as it doesn’t begin to express what’s happening. I see many people around me struggling with their own life complications, something I never really considered or noticed before and it affects me. I feel an understanding and compassion now, where as before I would shut them out emotionally, discard them, judge them. It seems everyone is dealing with “stuff” and so am I. In a way, I think it unites us as imperfect beings and the key is realizing and accepting that your imperfect; we’re all in this together.
It really is a state of mind. Being self-conscious, angry, depressed, having low self-esteem only get in the way of your true self. It’s there, I can feel it… if I could just let go of all the baggage; to realize all that’s negative doesn’t serve me at all.
So I’m scolding our two Chinese Crested doggies for peeing on the floor; bad girls, get in the room! (pointing sternly), you know why…, then I thought for a second and realized, they don’t know why, and neither do I. In fact, my entire reasoning was/is flawed.
Born out of a moment of joy
Soon to be mother and father
Ahoy, a random boy to destroy
Another “I” for the slaughter
Awoken open 45 years ago
Fallin’ a sleep ever since
No flow while pushing the scuffle hoe
the very thought makes me wince
Humanities not to blame
victims themselves of a broken being
Playing the same lame game
clouded from that which is freeing
Searchin’ for my-self in this existence
double my efforts before the clock runs out
Persistence in my resistance no matter the distance
This continuous battle arouses doubt
Reality under my control, which
external influences try to breach
Kicking my soul into the ole dark sink hole
These are all just figures of speech
Watching thoughts run through my head
feeling the corruption can be reversed
the dragon’s head not dead but realizing instead
The false belief of constant thirst
Yesterday’s but a thought
mind is fraught with a taught plot
clash of conflict you will weave
Rise and notice with conscious attention
thinking patterns that are scattered
Ascension to a dimension observing the tension
realizing the NOW, everything else shattered